I Took Things Slowly With You Because I Loved You
You were the One. I took things slowly with you because I loved you, I adored you, and I thought we had all the time in the world.I saw the hurt behind your smile, Something or someone in your past had hurt you very deeply, and you were afraid to trust me.
To this day, I don’t know what it was, but I clearly saw it when I looked into your eyes. I wanted to get you to trust me, to lower your defenses and let me in (I still want that). I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you.
I constantly fought the urge to do the horizontal jambo with you, specifically because I loved you. I wanted your heart AND your body. I wanted you to let me gently break down your walls. I wanted you to let me inside your heart so that I could really get to know you. I wanted to marry you and spend the rest of my life with you.
We’re still close, baby. You lash out at me because you still care. You won’t talk about it, so you push me away and reject my friendship. You mask your feelings with rage, but I see through it. We need to talk. I am your friend.
I am loyal to you. My dream has always been to find you again and to spend my life with you, as your friend, if not as something more. I didn’t want to stay away from you. Initially, I stayed away because I thought you hated me, and later, out of respect for you and the life you’d built. Staying away from you destroyed me emotionally and spiritually.
Until you returned, I was dead inside. Waiting all these years was a mistake, and I regret it. I should have ran to you years ago. Maybe you would have let me be your friend. I still have hope. I love you.
You know what your problem is? You don’t realize how much pain he is causing you because the so called love you have for him is numbing you. You do so much for him and he does not give back the same energy you have and that you give in.
When you do something wrong you take the fall HARD and when he does something wrong YOU find a way to make it right. All he has to do is sit back and relax while you break your back to do anything and everything you can for him.
But WHY? Because you love him? Because he loves you? If you ask me this isn’t love, this is just another case of manipulation that he has on his hands. What do you think he is doing all those times he take hours even days to text back? And I know you make excuses for him like “oh he’s probably just busy”,
” I don’t wanna bother him” ” He’s probably thinking about me” honey if he was thinking about you and actually wanted to talk to you he would. A man is never too busy for a woman he wants to talk to. It’s time to let him go. Love yourself