How do you know?” he asked as he stared at his feet, fingers tracing over his grandfather’s watch. “Know what?” I replied as I bit my lip, trying to lure the tears ready to jump from my eyes back to their home. “How do you know that you love me?”
questioned the boy who’d been broken too many times before that the thought of being loved was a foreign subject that even he couldn’t comprehend. I stuttered, not knowing how to start. Not knowing how to tell this boy that he was my world, my saviour, my best friend. Not knowing how to tell this boy that my heart was all his and that he, he was the most astonishing human being to ever set foot into my soul.
“There is no one else I want but you. I want you when you’re at your happiest and you stumble over your words as you share your excitement with me. I want you when you are curled into a ball on your bedroom floor, screaming at the universe for its ever so cruel ways. I want you when you apologize for nothing because you’re scared of losing me. I want you when I’m in your arms and our lips are together and I feel complete and I want you when we’re on opposite sides of the world and I’m falling apart.
I want you for everything that you are. I want to share every moment with you and most of all, I want you to be happy. Because my darling, I am in love with you.” said I, the girl who’s tears had now long fallen from her eyes and who’s heart ached to be next to yours All because I love you.
When you have finally met the one:
Does his laughter warm your body from the inside out? He knows that when you say two scoops you really mean three, right? Do you dance in his living room while drinking cheap wine? I hope so, and I hope you’re both drunk and terrible and laughing so hard you cry. Does he tell you how beautiful you are, and if yes, does he say it when the morning light falls upon your face? More importantly, when he tells you, do you believe him? Can you cry in front of him?
I hope you can, that means you trust him. When it’s pouring rain does he know that if your hair is curled or your eyes are sad that means he should get the car and bring it to you? When he asks what you want for dinner and you say you aren’t hungry, does he ask if you’ve eaten today? And when you say you had breakfast, I hope he knows you don’t eat breakfast, and makes you a bowl of rice, because that’s your favorite comfort food.
Does he kiss you good morning? Good night? Just because? Do you know he likes his coffee black? Unless he wants it cooled, then he will probably want some milk in it, but not too much. Do you know when he prefers tea to coffee? I never quite figured that out with your father, so if you have, you’re a better woman than I.
Have you figured out where he’s ticklish? Don’t let him convince you he’s not, I promise you he is. Have you frustrated the hell out of him yet? You will, oh you will, but it’s how you two come out of it that matters. And when he said he loved you for the very first time, did you respond by asking if he’s afraid of heights? I hope with my entire soul that he said yes because that means, despite his fear, he fell for you. Now, darling, you tell me, is he the one?”
You see, there comes a time when you meet someone and all the things you wanted in a lover just start to disappear. You wanted deep blue eyes like a clear ocean and then all of suddenly his brown creamy eyes become your favorite. You wanted someone who plays sports but the way he plays piano just softness your heart.
You wanted someone who can use beautiful words to make you feel better but he doesn’t speak when you’re clown crying he just sits there and holds you with no intention of letting go. You wanted a lover who tells you you’re the real art when you are at museums but then you meet someone who doesn’t look at the stars in the night but he just stares at you eyes. And you meet someone who pours milk in the coffee enough to resemble your eyes.
And you meet someone who makes you laugh. And suddenly he is like you wanted him to be. He makes you happy. That is all, happiness. Find a lover who tries everything to make you happy.